I enrol today, as an advocate in my jurisdiction, Uganda. (This clarification is for when God makes my blog international) 😎😌Anyway. I enrol today, and it is particularly emotional for me but for all the different non-academic reasons. It is a full circle moment.
(at the risk of traumatising all my aunties🙈).
I did not attend my last graduation. I mean, my family and I traversed many miles on end for the function only for me to miss it. Instead, I was stuck behind the graduation tent, hangover from a night of bad decisions - alternating between sleeping in a very uncomfortable chair and lifting my head to throw up - bruised from a fall I did not recall. I was not awake when my name was called.
I slept the entire way back but I remember feeling a certain kind of exhaustion I had never experienced before. Up until this point, I was not particularly excited about my life, but this exhaustion felt… different. It literally radiated from within me and transformed to physical fatigue. I now believe this is what someone means when they say they had come to the end of themselves. I was over it.
And then the Lord. Oh my. 😭 He rode on the bulk of every prayer ever made concerning me, and He stepped in. He purged my through nights of tears on end and cleaned up my act in a way that nobody else ever could. He made all things new. Especially me.
So if for anything else, I hope that I would always be the evidence of a God who gently but so powerfully loves you out of a life of emptiness.
I also intend to be fully awake when my name is read today. 😂 This time, backed by a powerful and mighty God. This time, hand held by the One - the only One. And I would not have it any other way.
I intend to be (internally) screaming at the top of my lungs fully aware of the God that turns things around. I intend to march out (internally) waving a banner declaring Jehovah Nissi. The Lord is my banner.
And that is the God who crowns me a winner.